Taking the plunge

I’ve just taken the first bath I’ve had in 2-3 years! You’re probably thinking wow, she must stink. Actually, it’s the first time in so long that I’ve plucked up the courage to make an attempt, since I had surgery on both my wrists, as well as gaining a considerable amount of weight (a little of which I’ve now lost). Up until now I’ve been afraid of whether I’d fit properly, and of course whether I’d be able to get out! This morning I decided to take the plunge. I figured if the worse came to the worst, I could trust Hubby to help me out.

I’ve recently been suffering a bout of depression and anxiety, and one of my very negative thoughts had been I’m too overweight to wash myself properly. This obviously wasn't a realistic thought because there were always alternatives to ‘bathing’, but in my depressed mind that thought had worked its way into my psyche and made me feel bad about myself.

This morning I told that thought I’m in control today, hence my lovely soothing coconut scented bath. I must admit, I was probably a funny sight getting out of the bath, especially as my wrists are still weak, so I had to turn over o to my front, stick my bum in the air and sort of reverse out. . . Please don’t dwell to long on that mental picture. And although Hubby didn't have to physically help me out, he did have to get my parcel that invariably arrived whilst I was in the tub.

All the things I’ve talked about above relate to my current plan of showing myself self-compassion and other well-being tips as mentioned on the Wellness League Channel The relaxing bath, challenging negative thoughts, even delivery of my special neck pillow to prevent aches and pains. This time of enforced lockdown has caused increased anxiety for many people with mental health problems like me. However I’ve managed to prevent things from spiralling out of control by putting measures in place, and seeking help from friends, colleagues and professionals like Dr Audrey Tang. Taking part in singing on this YouTube video, to a song I’m only just admitting I didn't know before was a challenge but a major accomplishment. Even writing here (which I realise I haven’t done for a while) has been beneficial for my mental wellbeing. Keep safe everyone, and see you on the outside soon.

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