Blast from the Past
- Patsy
- Jul 19, 2017
- 1 min read
Trigger warning
Today is a good day for me, mentally I am feeling good. Each day is different, but now there are more good days than bad. There was a time when this was far from true; here are some words from time gone by ...
. . . As I’ve said before, this time of year (particularly Valentine’s Day) is not good for me. Most people think it’s simply because I feel sorry for myself because I don’t get any cards. It actually runs deeper than that. It brings home to me the fact that I don’t have (and never really have had) a ‘significant other’ in my life, and my core belief (or lack of belief in myself) about my low self-worth and ability to attract anyone good into my life. I’ve had that thought with me most of my life to some extent, ie that there is something intrinsically ‘wrong’ with me and that no one will every truly love me. Sometimes it’s buried, but this time of year it gets stronger. At one point several years ago it was so strong that I actually attempted to end it all on Valentine’s day, hence my re-occurring low mood at this time.
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